When I wrote this post last week about getting sick and how hard it can be on a mom, I forgot to mention one very important thing that helps make the days so much better. Or someone, I should say. Micah has one awesome dad.

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I've known for the five years we've been married that I've had an awesome husband. There is no doubt about that. He shows me love in so many ways. This past week he did all the cooking and cleaning when I was too sick to move and slept next to me on the couch while I slept propped up in the recliner (because coughing and pregnancy and reflux don't mix). He doesn't just speak his love, he shows me. And I'm so grateful for that.

But what gets my heart even more excited, is that this man is the father of my children.He is the one they get to call, daddy. 

I'll be honest, I wasn't one of those girls who married a man because I thought he'd be a good dad. That wasn't even on my radar at the time. Everyone knows I married my husband because of his good looks and charm. ;) (Kidding... kinda.)

But while I still love the many qualities that first attracted me to my husband, the ones that I find myself falling more in love with these days are ones I never even imagined being "romantic."

Like, when he gets out of bed first in the morning to pick up Micah from his crib. Or sits on the couch with him and a cup of Cheerios while singing the "Elmo song" together.  Not reacting with anger when said cup of Cheerios gets dumped all over him. Teaching Micah to play ball. Giving him a bath. Changing dirty diapers. And cleaning up the endless amount of toys all over his room.

All the things my husband does are really things that both of us do, but he never just looks at them as "my duties." And that's what I love the most. He sees his role as a father as equal to mine. But, I think it's even more important.

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A daddy represents the closest earthly example we have to our Heavenly Father. God is referred and compared numerous times in Scripture to a father. I believe this earthly relationship can and has been taken for granted in our culture today.

Many fathers are more identified by the jobs they do than by being the fathers that they are. Even though they are not often seen as the ones toting children around in Moby wraps or pushing them in strollers - many times they are the ones paying for those wraps and strollers. They are the ones spending countless hours a day apart from their children, so that they can come home and know that they have been fed, changed, clothed and taken care of without a worry of how it will be paid for. They are providing benefits for their families every day of their life. Some won't be seen until they are no longer living.

If this isn't an example of what our Heavenly Father does for us every day, I don't know what is.

This isn't to say every man has taken his role of father seriously. Because the sad truth is 1 out of every 3 children lives apart from their father. And that number is higher or lower depending on the demographic. And just to offer a comparison... in 1960, only 1 out of 10 children lived apart from their fathers.

This statistic breaks my heart.

Whether by choice or force, something is splitting children away from their daddys. We know the enemy of this world wants to destroy our lives. What better way than to sabotage the only earthly example of a loving, compassionate Father that we have?

That's where the similarities end.

God will never leave and never turn His back on us. His love is unfailing. Nothing can separate us.

For many children the word "father" is painful. Filled with a longing and desire that was never fulfilled for them on this earth. But the good news that is offered by salvation in Jesus Christ is not just of the eternal kind. Oh no, my friend. The good news is that those who have once been fatherless, are now given the greatest love of all by a Heavenly Father.

And just like my son running into the arms of my husband every time he walks in the door from work... they get to call him, "daddy."

As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him. Psalm 103:13

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Yesterday I woke up with a horrible cough. Like, the painful kind where you cough and feel like a lung is coming up or something. Poor Hannah must feel like she's on a roller coaster in my tummy.

But what's a mom to do when she feels like lying in bed all day?

There is still a little person who needs you. One who doesn't understand when you look him in the eyes and say in a gruffly tone of voice, "Mommy doesn't feel well."

Because in his mind, mommy can't get sick.

At 16 months, my son's whole world right now revolves around his ability to understand two things and two things well: 1) He has needs 2) Mommy/Daddy can meet those needs.

And that, we do. Whether it's feeding him when he's hungry or changing him when he's dirty. His needs are always met, and most of the time, with much urgency on our part.

But there are days, like yesterday, when it's hard. And feels more like a job (that you can't call in sick to) than the joy and blessing it actually is. It's these days when my flesh and spirit are weak. These days that I can quickly become irritable. These days that I need the reminder that alone, mommy is never going to be enough.

I need Jesus so badly.

His strength when I am weak. His patience when I have none. And most of all, I need my children to see that. Because the best gospel message we could ever teach them is that we are never going to be all they need.

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Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 30 weeks, 2 days Size of baby: size of a cabbage, weighing almost 3lbs now! Total Weight Gain/Loss: + 20lbs. Definitely doing better on the weight gain this time around. Not really sure what I'm doing differently (in fact, I felt like I went to the gym and worked out more while pregnant with Micah) but I'm thankful. I still have a couple months to go though... Maternity Clothes: Yes, yes, yes! Some things I love: maternity leggings, jeans and tank tops (didn't even know they made them, but SO comfy! and great to wear under tops to help cover up the "area" that keeps growing and growing and... you get my drift?) I still wear some non-maternity stuff in bigger sizes, but it definitely fits awkwardly. Gender: GIRL! Still can't believe I'm having a girl sometimes... :) Movement: Sweet little Hannah Leigh is taking up quite a bit of space. I can definitely tell she is growing. If I push in certain areas I can feel her feet and limbs! It's amazing (and freaks Josh out!)  She has had the hiccups a lot lately too, just like her brother. ;) Sleep: I am waking up more in the middle of the night, not to pee, but to roll over. I am super paranoid about sleeping on my back, because of what I've read about the blood flow being cut off to the baby. And last night I think I woke up three times laying FLAT on my back and immediately turned over. Oh, how this belly is getting heavier to shift around! Haha. Cravings: Nothing yet! I know I said I had a sweet tooth, but that seems to have passed (or could have just been attributed to all the Thanksgiving/Christmas goodies lying around!) Symptoms: Big belly. ;) Best Moment this week: Getting to hear Micah say "Hannah" and give my baby belly a hug! So sweet. :)

//previous updates on baby Hannah: 27 weeks21 weeks 18 weeks14 weeks

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I gotta be honest... 30 weeks is a strange place to be in pregnancy. It feels like a huge milestone, like you're almost to the finish line because you've reached the "thirties" and people now begin to comment on how "HUGE" you're getting (gotta love it!) But then you look at the calendar and see you still have 2.5 more months or 10 weeks or 70 days to go. However you count it, all of it sounds longer than you FEEL you have left. At least that's the case for me.

I remember with Micah that this is when time started to slow down. Although time has been going so fast this pregnancy, slow will probably feel more normal. We still have lots to do to prepare for her arrival. It could be the case of the second child, but I feel like I was so stressed about having everything perfect and ready for Micah - then he came, and we held him almost 20 hours of the day and he didn't even sleep in his nice, decorated nursery until he was about 2 months old (and that was only for naps!) I learned diapers, wipes, clothes and blankets are the necessities for a newborn.

I may be more laid-back this time, but I'm still as excited as if it were my first! Because, this is my first girl. Despite knowing she probably won't sleep in it for a couple months, I have been working on her nursery. And decorating cute and frilly for a little girl has been fun! I am going with a yellow & white theme. I will be sure to take pictures and post them as soon as it is done (you could be waiting til March for that post!)

More than anything, I am ready to see how life will change with two children. I feel like I am just now getting a good routine going with Micah. But isn't that the beauty of life? Never getting comfortable. Always depending on the Lord for our strength. I feel so blessed to be where I am right now in this moment - a mom to an active 16 month old and 30 weeks pregnant with our baby girl.

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