It's amazing what a new blog design can do to kick up the inspiration to write! What is this, 3 days in a row now? I can't promise I will keep this up all year, but I think now that I have thrown away any expectations for myself and this blog, it's become a lot easier to just sit down and write. I just got home from a quick trip to Gainesville (about 45 minutes away) to drop my mom off at a doctor appointment and swing by Panera to meet up with a friend while I waited for her to get done. My mom and I love to talk, so there is never a moment of silence while we drive. Somehow we got to talking about college and how God provided in so many ways that seem miraculous to me now. Like the one time I got a job four hours away leading worship for a good-sized church. They reimbursed me for gas/mileage AND paid me a generous salary on top of it. Oh, and I was only 19 years old at the time. It basically paid for my entire semester of college that year, and came at a time when I desperately needed it.

And then I started thinking about all the ways God really has provided, even since then.

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2013 was the first year I have officially been "unemployed" and taken on my new role as a stay-at-home mom. Prior to that I had been working various jobs for the past decade, since I got my first job as a cashier at a grocery store when I was 16 years old. 2013 was also the first year, since Josh and I have been married, that we were able to afford gifts for both sides of our families, our little boy, Micah... and amazingly, each other.

Looking back on the year, I have tried to pinpoint a cause for this ease in financial burden. But, honestly, I just can't find one. On paper it doesn't make sense. We have an extra mouth in the family to feed, not to mention buy clothes, diapers and other baby products for. There have been unexpected doctor bills and we still haven't sold our house in Alabama. We could be drowning right now.

Instead, we're floating. And even getting a nice suntan while we're at it.

I don't say this to boast in anything we have done. Or even to say that we are living extravagant lives and throwing money up in the air above our heads. This is definitely not the case. But we have a home - a nice home with enough room for our growing family - we are never hungry and do not have to rely on credit cards to pay for flat tires. There was a time when we did.

We made poor decisions in the past with money, and I believe we suffered the consequences for it. But since we made the choice that I would stay home and raise our children, I have never seen a decision more blessed.

I write this all, not only to celebrate and praise God for what He has done in our lives, but to encourage others out there who need to hear this reminder.

And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

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I think we worry too much about what we don't have, instead of really looking at what we do. I know that was the case for me before I had children. It's amazing the difference a shift in perspective can make. I could complain about the movies we don't get to go see in theaters, or the fancy dinners we don't get to have as often, or even the cost of having to pay for a babysitter to do any of these things anymore.

But what I enjoy more than anything these days is a night at home with my family, cooking a nice meal (usually made for a total of $5 or less!) and streaming a new movie on our Xbox for $3.99. We take walks as a family, go to the park, enjoy God's beautiful creation... and nothing costs a dime. Our bank account is full. Our life is even fuller.

There are so many negative things going around about how much having children costs, and "your life will be over" statements that make me cringe! Maybe I'm only one year into it, and I still have a lot to learn, but that hasn't been my experience so far. And I really don't believe God ever intended for it to be.

So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. Matthew 6:31-33

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God provides. I have so much faith in this promise, because I have witnessed it with my own eyes. Through the tangible gifts of family, friends and members in our church - He has provided.

But I think we miss the part where it says to, "Seekfirst the Kingdom of God and liverighteously" and forget that there is an action required on our end. Our lives and choices should be evaluated constantly to make sure we are truly seeking what is best for the Kingdom. If we do this, we can rely on His promise to supply everything we need.   Sometimes that means taking a leap of faith when it doesn't make sense on paper. It doesn't mean you're irresponsible, it just means you are trusting in a God who is more responsible than you. And most importantly, a God who knows what you need before you ever know you need it.  

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2013 will always be remembered as my very first year of parenting. I began this year with a cuddly, four month old and ended with a very active, going-on-sixteen month old.

This has been one of the best years of my life.

Literally. One of the best ever.

And I say that with gratitude and a little bit of caution, because I know the mountain top can only be so wide before it descends back into reality. We have experienced difficult years in the past and cried many painful tears, so this year feels like sunshine after a good, long rain.

Not to say we haven't had our good moments in the past. Josh and I have definitely been blessed with a loving marriage, supportive parents and wonderful church families. We have never walked alone through any storm that we faced and God's faithfulness through difficult times has been proven in our lives time and time again! We are better because of it.

But honestly, this is the first year that I can remember when there hasn't been something very painful we've had to go through. No divorce, no deaths, no cancer, no bad diagnoses... this is rare. And I don't want to let this year pass without giving praise and glory to God for His grace and lovingkindness towards us in 2013.

Because Your lovingkindness is better than life, My lips will praise You. Psalm 63:3

Here are 13 reasons I am rejoicing over 2013:

1) A better understanding of God's unconditional love for me. 2) A Christ-centered and loving marriage. 3) Watching Micah grow and learn something new everyday. 4) Expecting a baby girl, Hannah Leigh. 5) A wonderful ministry at Church @ the Springs. 6) New friendships. 7) God's provision for our family while allowing me to stay home. 8) Settling in to our rental house, so it feels more like our own. 9) A growing passion for photography. 10) Teaching music lessons from home. 11) Growing up and FINALLY getting on a schedule of going to bed and waking up earlier. 12) Becoming a better cook (by actually cooking at home more!) 13) Learning to live with gratefulness for each day.

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I am looking forward to 2014 and all that it will bring. Becoming a mom of two (under two!) is sure to be quite the adventure. And I am very eager to share all of the the joys and trials that come along with it. Because friends, we are not alone in this world and we were never meant to walk it alone. I am learning that day by day. And this year, more than any other, has taught me so much about the importance of community. I desperately need it. So, here's to more community in 2014.

And as always, here's to more blogging in 2014 too!

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Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 27 weeks, 1 day Size of baby: size of a cauliflower, weighing about 2lbs now! Total Weight Gain/Loss: + 19lbs. Had a big weight jump around 23-25 weeks, which is when I really felt like my belly finally "popped!" This also coincided with Thanksgiving (no coincidence there I'm sure!) let's just hope I can make it through Christmas okay... ;) Maternity Clothes: Definitely living in maternity pants and leggings. I have to say, I love being pregnant in the winter! (Even though, with a high of 70, Florida is far from what you would consider a normal "winter!") There is so much more diversity with sweaters and loose fitting tops with leggings. Things that I found excruciatingly hot when I was pregnant with Micah last summer, I am loving today! Gender: Based on the multiple ultrasounds we've had... it is pretty certain there is a sweet little girl in there! Movement: She is moving all the time now! She is even moving as I type this right now. :) It is amazing to watch her move on the outside of my belly too! And based on all of the kicks, rolls and punches I feel, she is just getting stronger and stronger! Sleep: I'm having a tad bit of acid reflux if I lay completely flat, so elevating my head a little has helped ease it. Nothing so far like I experienced with Micah though, so for that I am grateful! I also am having very strange pregnancy dreams. Two nights ago I gave birth to a 20lb baby and last night I went into labor and my husband was nowhere to be found and not answering his phone when I tried to call him! Nightmares, I tell ya. Cravings: I definitely have a sweet tooth this pregnancy! I mean, I'm always one to enjoy some candy or pie every now and then, but this is like an insatiable desire for sweets that I can never satisfy. I do limit myself though, and have tried to replace it with sweet things like fruit and smoothies. It's funny, because with Micah it was sour things. I had a HUGE lemon craving. Maybe a gender thing? Symptoms: This question gets weirder as I get farther along... what ISN'T a symptom of pregnancy right now? I'm having some pelvic pressure already, but that's about the only thing I can think of that might be interesting to note. Best Moment this week: Hearing Hannah's strong heartbeat at the doctor's office. 147bpm and active! :)

//previous updates on baby Hannah: 21 weeks 18 weeks14 weeks

// read what was going on when I was pregnant with Micah around this week.

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i got a little inspired with my christmas tree lighting... sorry for the hazy pics! 

This pregnancy has been flying by! It could be that it's my second and most people forewarned me that this would happen. But I think the time of the year also has a little something to do with it. All of the holidays in the fall/winter to look forward to make counting down til March a lot easier! There was Micah's birthday in September, Halloween in October, Thanksgiving in November and now we are approaching Christmas NEXT WEEK!

I can't tell you how excited I am for this little girl to join our family. It has been a true gift to have Micah in our lives. We count it a blessing all the time that we are able to have children! I never want to take my role of "mama" for granted, so I am cherishing every moment that I can. Both with Micah and my pregnancy with Hannah.

This may sound weird coming from someone who's having back-to-back, 18 month apart babies - but I still look at pregnancy as a miracle. And I still wonder if this is the last time I will ever be pregnant. Because, you really never know. We would love to have more children, but it's not something that is ever guaranteed. So when I look down and see those faint, but obvious stretch marks or my bulging baby belly that makes me feel more plump than "petite and pregnant," I really have to alter my perspective a little and embrace the goodness of pregnancy. Because it is a beautiful, transforming thing. Transforming in obvious ways by the physical changes that happen on the outside, but even greater are the ways that I have been transformed inwardly. I could spend an entire blog post talking about them, and you may just see me do that here soon!

Thanks for all the love and continued prayers for our family! We appreciate all of you so much. :)