I can't believe it's already been a month since our little boy arrived! Nursing, diaper changes and rocking/soothing to sleep has mostly been my routine lately. Call me up and I'm probably doing one of those three things! ha. But what a joy it has been. Micah is changing every day. When we brought him home, he slept a lot (and still does) and we could tell his eyes weren't mature enough to really "focus" on us yet. But the last couple weeks he has come to life! He now follows our eyes when we move. And if he's crying, he'll immediately stop when he catches a glimpse of his daddy and I. We're pretty sure his love languages are physical touch and quality time (I'm sure that's all babies, really). We are still waiting for a real SMILE... but he gives us this smirk sometimes that makes Josh and I think he's going to break at any moment. :) He's had a strong neck since birth, but around three weeks he really started holding up his head for good amounts of time. And now while lying on his tummy, he can turn it from side to side! Such a strong, growing boy. This is what we've been praying for! At his last doctor appointment this past Monday, he weighed 10.2lbs!! That is 2.1lbs more than his birth weight. We were so thrilled to hear this. As long as he is growing and not having any issues, the doctors will hold off on doing surgery to repair the hole in his heart. The one thing we continue to ask prayer for is his breathing. It's a little faster than it should be, so he was prescribed some medicine that is supposed to help.
All that said, we couldn't be more proud of our little blessing.
He is perfect and exactly the way God created him to be!
We are so honored to be his parents.
how am i suppose to get anything done when i stare at this face all day?
my sleep schedule is off. my eating schedule is off.
and i'm lucky if i take a shower and get dressed (didn't happen today).
but i am loving every moment.
Micah is 3 weeks today.
and i'm still learning what every cry means.
and that sometimes he just wants to be held.
i have no problem holding him all day. but that means nothing gets done.
and i'm learning to be okay with that.
thankfully, i have an AMAZING husband (and daddy!) who has become great at dishes, laundry and putting my food on a plate for me.
he does it without complaining too -- after a full day at work.
our family time is now spent together on the sofa, going for a walk, or giving Micah a bath.
and i'm soaking it up.
because i know the time is over too soon.
and before I blink, he'll be a teenager seeking independence.
so yes, i'll gladly pause life and snuggle with my baby.
today, tomorrow... as long as i can.
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105.
This has been the truth of my life lately.
A few days ago, I was overcome with worry (and when I say "overcome," I mean completely overwhelmed, shaking in fear - worried). So what did I do? Googled "verses on worry," of course! These verses gave me immediate comfort. "Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." How about that for a lift in your spirit?!
But why has this just been true in my life lately?
That's what I've come to despise in myself. It takes circumstances that are out of my control, completely, for me to walk with God's word as a lamp to my every step. I don't want to have to go through the valley to need the lamp! God, I promise I still need You when things are going great.
But obviously, He knows better. God knows my heart and how much I desired to be a mother. He gave me my heart's desire and now He is guaranteeing that I walk close to Him in this journey.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10.
Yesterday's heart appointment for Micah was much more encouraging! We were able to talk to another doctor about his echo (ultrasound of his heart). This doctor seems to think that Micah's hole has a great chance of closing on it's own - or at least, getting smaller. And he said Micah could live with a small VSD (hole) and be fine! This was drastically different than what the doctor last week said. Of course, he also said that his hole is a moderate size and will take months for us to start seeing some change and within that time he could start having symptoms of heart failure - in which case we would need to take the step forward in getting it fixed surgically.
Just knowing there is now a "chance" it can close on it's own, is an improvement from last week! I have faith that God can heal Micah's hole completely.
A sweet friend has been sending me Scripture verses for the past couple days. She also sent me this new song by Meredith Andrews called "Not For a Moment," that just speaks such truth to my heart. I wanted to share it with you all - so I took a break in the middle of writing this blog post to pull out my guitar and learn it. Check out a little cameo of Micah in the background too! He made it into his first youtube video (outside the womb). ;)
p.s. I don't know why the audio & video are not in sync... but I didn't really want to redo it. Or maybe Micah woke up. My apologies. :)
Not For a Moment
You were reaching through the storm, walking on the water,
Even when I could not see.
In the middle of it all, when I thought you were a thousand miles away.
Not for a moment, did You forsake me.
Not for a moment, did You forsake me.
After all, You are constant.
After all, You are only good.
After all, You are sovereign.
Not for a moment, will You forsake me.
You were singing in the dark, whispering Your promise.
Even when I could not hear.
I was held in Your arms, carried for a thousand miles to show,
Not for a moment did You forsake me.
After all, You are constant.
After all, You are only good.
After all, You are sovereign.
Not for a moment, will You forsake me.
Not for a moment, will You forsake me.
And every step, every breath You are there.
Every tear, every cry, every breath.
In my hurt, at my worst, when my world falls down.
Not for a moment, will You forsake me.
Even in the dark, even when it's hard
You will never leave me
After all
After all, You are constant.
After all, You are only good.
After all, You are sovereign.
Not for a moment, will You forsake me.
Not for a moment, will You forsake me.
I can't believe it's already been a month since our little boy arrived! Nursing, diaper changes and rocking/soothing to sleep has mostly been my routine lately. Call me up and I'm probably doing one of those three things! ha. But what a joy it has been. Micah is changing every day. When we brought him home, he slept a lot (and still does) and we could tell his eyes weren't mature enough to really "focus" on us yet. But the last couple weeks he has come to life! He now follows our eyes when we move. And if he's crying, he'll immediately stop when he catches a glimpse of his daddy and I. We're pretty sure his love languages are physical touch and quality time (I'm sure that's all babies, really). We are still waiting for a real SMILE... but he gives us this smirk sometimes that makes Josh and I think he's going to break at any moment. :) He's had a strong neck since birth, but around three weeks he really started holding up his head for good amounts of time. And now while lying on his tummy, he can turn it from side to side! Such a strong, growing boy. This is what we've been praying for! At his last doctor appointment this past Monday, he weighed 10.2lbs!! That is 2.1lbs more than his birth weight. We were so thrilled to hear this. As long as he is growing and not having any issues, the doctors will hold off on doing surgery to repair the hole in his heart. The one thing we continue to ask prayer for is his breathing. It's a little faster than it should be, so he was prescribed some medicine that is supposed to help.
