I think I need to just go ahead and drop the dream of ever becoming some super-amazing, consistent blogger. It's just not me. And if in 8 years of blogging I haven't found a way to master it, it's not going to ever be me. But really. I don't see how you daily bloggers, or even 3 times a week bloggers, do it?! Is someone cleaning your house for you? Watching the kids? Cooking dinner? Feel free to share your secrets, because I haven't figured it out yet.
What I can tell you, is that I am learning more about what it means to let go.
I'm letting go... of feeling like I need to be great at everything. I'm letting go... of feeling like I need to respond to everyone. I'm letting go... of feeling the need to know what is going on in everyone's lives. I'm letting go... of anything that distracts me from the best things in my life.
Jesus. My husband. My son.
I've had to make a few sacrifices recently. Dropping some things that I thought were great, realizing they were only good things distracting me from the best things.
Most of these are personal decisions, like how much time I spend online (and on my iPhone, which I excuse as not actually being "online" but it totally is) and being intentional about being more of a listener to my husband, eye contact and all.
But spiritually-speaking, I have been asking God to show me what He desires for me to be passionate about. Because, let's be honest... passion is not a value I am lacking. Being passionate about the things that He is passionate about? Well, that's a different story.
This world sure does "fire me up" (to use my husband's terminology), but I need to be careful that in my anger towards this world and all the evil in it - I do not become distracted in sharing the greatest news of all. The victory HAS been won! We will not suffer for too much longer.
want need to focus my attention on things that are true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, and excellent (phil 4:8) because God knows that my mind can dwell on the lies, dishonorable, wrong, immoral and evil.
And while the fight against evil is a good cause - the victory over it has already been won in Jesus Christ! And it's a good cause, not worth compromising for the best message of all - Jesus saves.