"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding."Proverbs 3:5
Lean not on your own understanding. Oh Lord, how I have struggled to do this lately.
When I don't understand something, I get really frustrated. For example, this past week I went snow skiing for the first time. Let's just say it was quite an experience! After 20-something falls, including one while getting off the lift, I may have whispered to Josh that "this was not my thing" and "I don't know how anyone enjoys this." Ha! Of course Josh and our friends skiing with us assured me that everyone struggles to learn, and that I was actually doing quite well for my first time. But since I hadn't grasped the concept of skiing yet, I was frustrated.
Same goes with my relationship with the Lord. There are times in my life when it is easy to see and understand God's will. For example, marrying my husband, Josh, was a no brainer! Godly, hot and funny. Package deal right there. :) But much of the time I am confused, doubtful and... yes, frustrated, with the way life is going. If you've been reading my blog for any amount of time, you may have sensed that in a few of my posts. But looking back on all the frustrating times, I can see God's hand at work even in my doubt. When I get frustrated, it is because I lack understanding. I don't see the big picture, only the pain in the moment.
"Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning." Proverbs 30:5
Back to skiing. I walked away from the experience feeling like a failure. From my understanding, falling meant failure. But my understanding was flawed. Everyone falls. And if I had known this, I may have realized that I was actually doing pretty good! This is a simple analogy. But I find comfort in knowing that my simplistic mind will never be as great as my Father. And in the areas where I feel like I am failing... I trust in the LORD with all of my heart and lean not on my own understanding.
(Read my husband's latest post on this same topic!)